You’ll come to the point, when you’re about 6
you’ll realize you’re shaped a lot different than your friends.
When you’re about 10 they’ll start to call you
‘over the shoulder, boulder holder.’
This is the same age where you will always be last picked for dodge ball, tag, or any other game that involves running.
14 and high school you’ll try out for all athletic teams but the only one you’ll make will be shot put and discus thrower on the track and field team. You’re already close to 6’0 tall and really wanted to play basketball.
No one will really say why you weren't picked.
16, you’ll start taking diet pills because you’re going to start thinking you’ll be more accepted if you looked more like everyone else.
There’s a boy you like, he ignores you.
18 and graduation, you realize the pills didn’t work. You hope things will be better in college.
18-22 you put on about 50 pounds in college. The freshman 15 on steroids.
Boys like you but as ‘a friend.’ You’re the ‘one of the guys’ girls.
22 and grad school. Things will be different.
They’re not. The only difference is the sex is quick, impassionate, and he doesn’t make eye contact.
Around 27 you’re going to start to look at your body differently. You’re going to start appreciating its distinction, roundness, the character of having fleshy thighs.
You’re going to fall off the wagon a bit between 28-30. Diet pills, excessive and obsessive exercise behaviors, you’ll even try vomiting after you eat for a short time.
31 and you’ll realize you’re beautiful not because a man told you so or the media says you are but because you truly are
Fat and beautiful.
Little fat girl, don’t wait till you’re 31 to realize that.
Please.
